What have I learned in the month of December?

What have I learned in the month of December?

- I have the most amazing family and doctors
- My Father in Heaven knows me personally
- I could not get through a single day without my husband by my side
- It breaks my heart to see Ben sad
- I’m excited to be a mom some day
- Life isn’t easy but it is worth it

All of this came from a few large events that happened in the first 2 weeks in December. On Ben’s birthday December 1st we went to dinner and I refused to eat. My food smelled horrible and there was no way I was eating it. At that point and due to other factors Ben and I decided to go pick-up a pregnancy test. On the way to the store I told Ben that it was going to be negative. He told me that he knew that.

After getting home and getting up the nerve to take the test a solid line appeared which meant it was negative. I was picking at my face when I looked down and saw a second line fading in. I went in the bedroom and threw it at Ben. When he realized what it meant I began to hyperventilate. I wasn’t exactly ready for what the test told me.

Later that week I began to bleed nothing the doctors were worried about but to calm me down they did blood tests. My hormone levels were not as high as they would have liked but they weren’t worried. We told the “Grandmothers” and they were ecstatic!

The next week blood tests were done again and blood levels had doubled. We were told we had nothing to worry about we were doing great!!!!

That day and the next day I was deathly ill. I mean throwing up crackers, water, even the thought of food made me throw up. In the middle of this I had to take an accounting final which I must say I received 146 out of 150!!!!

On Wednesday, December 9, 2009 I was at work when I went to the bathroom and saw too much blood for me not to worry. I called the doctor hysterically and went for an ultrasound. My mom took me and the ultrasound did not show a heart beat but at 7 weeks you do not always see one. I went for more blood tests and that night I called the doctor and he let me know that my hormone levels had not gone up and it was a miscarriage.

Ben got home, we called the doctor I got the information and I was done calling into work around 10pm. I had a 7:30a final the next day. It was a crazy few weeks. That doesn’t include the next day I had to take pills to “pass the tissue” which wasn’t exactly the best feeling I have ever felt.

Some of you have heard this story and some of you haven’t. I wasn’t keeping it a secret but I didn’t announce it either.

I could not have made it through these last weeks without my family and my doctor. I would not have survived without all the prayers for Ben and I. I know my Heavenly Father was watching over us. I could not have made it through this without Ben there holding me through it. He has been the tough one even when it wasn’t easy.

I still have my moments but over all I think I am doing okay.

I just have to say again... Ben, and all of my fanily and friends I love each of you! I couldn't make it without you!

South Carolina

Well I did it… I put Ben on a plane for South Carolina. He is in Columbia for 5 days to do some training.

I don’t think this would be so tough on me however… since Ben and I met a year and 7 months ago we have not spent more than 2 days apart. And since we have been married (8 months on Wednesday) we have not spent 1 night apart.

I’m sure this is worse for me than him. But I just hope and pray this week goes by very quickly!!!

Flu Shot

Monday was annual Flu Shot day at Sunshine Terrace. As usual I filled out the papers, stood in line, faced the other way and said ouch as the needle poked me!
The aches and pains started Tuesday. Thursday came the nausea and sure enough Friday night came the throwing up.

It was down hill from there. Missed temple session Saturday morning, church on Sunday and work on Monday.

It is times like these I am so grateful for a husband who will fix me soup, run the hot water and fill the tub with bubble bath, buy lots and lots of Gatorade and lay around and watch movies with me.

He seems to be the only one lately that can make me feel better. However, I do think things are getting better. Recovery just seems to be going a little bit slower than I would like.

What have I learned from this: What a great husband I have!!! and the only other thing I can say is....DARN FLU SHOT!

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Circus!

Ben and I were able to go to the circus on Friday...due to an amazing deal on tickets...
Here are some pictures from the evening we spent together.

Just getting ready to head to Salt Lake City!

Just having fun at the circus!

My new circus cup to add to my cup collection!!!!

BYU vs FSU

This evening Florida State came to Provo to play BYU at home. Little did anyone know they would win the game 54 to 28.

Ben says, "I'm over being upset. I'll care about BYU next week." haha... this is why I love the man!!!!

I must brag again...

It's time I brag about my husband a little more!!!...it has been a few days! I am terrified of spiders and I have the cutest husband!!! He has placed 5 spider traps outside the front door, tape, 5 spider traps inside the front door, 5 outside the backdoor and 1 outside our bedroom door!! Now that is love!!!!

Sad news in the Burt family... Norco one of our newest hermit crabs passed away Friday afternoon around 4:00pm. His body has been taken care of and his shell has been boiled clean.... once again thanks to my husband!!

My husband is here to comfort me when I feel I did something wrong and that is why he died. I cannot imagine where I would be without Ben. He listens to me complain and tell him all about my day and I mean every single detail. He helps me work things out when I overreact about things. He is seriously an amazing guy!!!!!!! I love him more and more each day... even when I think I can't love a person any more. Point of this post.... I LOVE BENJAMIN RICHARDS BURT with all of my HEART!!!!!!!

It's over!

Well.... it's official Big Brother has ended!!! I guess Ben and I will have to find something else to do on Sunday, Tuesday and Thursday night!!! But more importantly... JORDAN WON!!!!!


I am very glad that I married a guy who will sit by my side for 3 hours a week watching TOTAL drama all summer long!!!

My husband!!!!

I have the cutest husband in the whole entire world!!!
He does the sweetest things like leave cute notes with the magnetic letters, make me hot chocolate when I'm sick, fix me breakfast while I get ready, make sure my blankets stay on at night, keep the humidifier full of water and does whatever he can to make me smile. This is just the beginning of what he does for me!!!!
He seriously is the best husband!!!! I could NOT ask for a better guy to stand by my side for eternity!!! I just wanted you all to know that!!!
I seriously love him more and more every single day!!!

Putting his evil powers into execution

Don't you hate it when spouses can edit posts?

Hey!!!

Well, I decided today that this will be the easiest way to keep everyone updated on us... from immediate family to extended family!!!


Ben - is enjoying his job (as far as I can tell and as far as he is telling me). BYU football has started which has made him very happy!!! BYU won yesterday 54 to 3 against Tulane. It was a good day.


Ben's surgery was a success!!! He still has some nerve damage but we hope and pray that over time it will go away!!!

Sasha - I started going to school again this semester... so far so good I suppose. I went to a neurologist to see what he could do about my migraines. They did a MRI which came out clean and they did IV therapy for three days, a hour a day. I meet with the doctor to see what to do from here.

Married life is great!!! Life is great... no complaints here!! Thanks again to all of you for your love and support!!!